So, I wasn't able to sleep early last night because I had an almost 3 hour nap yesterday and I ended chatting on phone with my long lost friend. We talked about so many things, most especially her 'bitterness with the ex of ex's'. It's pretty funny to think, that we haven't seen each other for about 7 years. She was really a very good friend, someone I consider special.
Before I slept, I set the alarm at around 12am, I have to make small sacrifices and I don't mind following few advices. When it alarmed, I said my prayer and went to sleep again. It's almost 8am, but before I go to our venue today, I'll just go and visit the church. I'm not that religious and honestly speaking, I rarely hear mass, I swear. The reason why I'm going to church, just now, is because I need some peace, a peaceful and quiet place, or should I say a solemn place to say my prayer. I have faith in Him and I do believe in myself. I'm not going extreme, but I'm doing my part. When I was still studying, I've been very good. I played my part well, I've been going to class everyday and I rarely absent myself. I study and give myself a decent grade. I do my cases, assignments and almost everything. I don't even skip classes nor cheat on my mom about school payments. In short, I've been a very good and obedient daughter. And so just now, I feel like, I deserve to pass, or maybe I'm just bargaining here. But I really, really want to pass, and so just to boost my self-esteem and morale, I always tell myself, that I will pass.
I know, people around me keeps on telling me that 'it will be ok', 'you will make it', but whatever it is, only one thing can give me comfort and remove my anxiety and even traces of it, the license itself and nothing else.